Do You Believe?
At the age of 18 after a horrible accident where I lost my best friend I began to experience health issues.
At the age of 20 I was diagnosed with a chronic autoimmune disease and multiple food sensitivities.
I didn't want to believe it or give in so I kept pushing my body, trying to live a normal life of working and living. I tried to prepare meals around the long list of foods that I could no longer eat, but it was overwhelming and my meals were boring and tasteless.
At age 29, my body said no more and I was bed- ridden, full of pain, anxiety and helplessness. No one seemed to be able to help me. My husband and some friends deserted me. My self-esteem was gone as I could no longer contribute and partake in life. It seemed like I had an empty future ahead of me.
Yet, despite those feelings, I kept going, for somewhere deep inside there was always a glimmer of hope.
I started to study nutrition and learned that foods could help my body to heal. I eventually wrote a cookbook and seemed to gain a little energy, only to be struck down by another illness. Wondering if this was my destiny, I restructured my life and lead the simplest of lives— eating, resting, living one day at a time despite the chronic pain, and trying to keep the fear at bay. How would I look after myself or pay the bills? Would I ever feel well and be able to lead a normal life?
I started to meditate daily and work with practitioners that were showing me that trauma can get trapped in our bodies and make us sick. That my thoughts were a part of the illness.
Being on disability for so many years not only drains your bank account, it also drains your self-esteem. I wondered if I would ever feel useful again.
Along the way, I’ve been blessed to have a loving family who have been with me every step of the way — not always understanding, but being there when I needed them.
A few years ago I met a wonderful man who loves me for who I am, not what I can do.
I know healing is an ongoing journey and I am proud of what I have accomplished and enjoy sharing my knowledge and recipes with others.
I know realize that my allergies and my illness were to help me to become the woman I am today, to lead a simpler, more compassionate life.
I have met many wonderful people along my journey who have helped me and so in turn I now enjoy helping others embark on theirs, through diet, and healing foods.
Yours in health,